How deep? I don't know. All I know is that we had been going steadily downward the whole time. We started out walking. Then, we had to crouch a bit. Soon enough, we were crawling on all fours.
And always on a slight decline.
Eventually, the cave ceiling became so low the only practical thing to do was to lie down. For most of that journey, we crawled along with just enough room to use our legs and arms to push/pull us. That wasn't so difficult. Even though it was slight, the incline was downward. There was still room to turn over on our backs whenever we wanted to take a break.
The payoff for all of this was the rumored large "cave of crystals" we were supposed to find at the end of the tunnel. Others had been there before us, and they promised the experience was worth all the trouble. So on we went.
In time, the tunnel dimensions were pretty tight. We lost the ability to turn over on our backs; just too narrow. There was just enough ceiling height for us and our gear. We had been told that the last stretch was a bit more of an decline, the end of which would be an opening into the large cave. We got pretty excited when the tunnel turned even more downward.
Until we came to the wall ... dead end.
So there we were, one in front of the other, heads down, feet up. At this point, the tunnel was too tight for us to turn around. We hadn't found the crystal cave. We couldn't go forward. We were out of options. We just wanted to give up.
Are you feeling that sense of claustrophobia? The sense of failure? No room to maneuver. Nowhere to turn. Actually between a rock and a hard place.
The Hebrew word for this kind of situation is "TZOROS." It's the word for trouble. Its literal meanings are dire straits, nowhere to turn, between a rock and a hard place, no room to maneuver, out of options, no margin.
That's the word in this week's Lectionary selection from Psalm 91 where God says, "Those who love me, I will deliver; I will protect those who know my name. When they call to me, I will answer them; I will be with them in trouble, I will rescue them and honor them." (NRSV Psalm 91:14-15)
God knows when we are in trouble (tzoros) and will be with us in it. I like this quote from Anne Lamott's Traveling Mercies, "This is the most profound spiritual truth I know: that even when we're most sure that love can't conquer all, it seems to anyway. It goes down into the rat hole with us . . . and there it swells and comforts. It gives us second winds, third winds, hundredth winds."
That is God's response to no margin, to dire straits, to "out of options," to trouble so bad it needs a special word to describe it.
No matter how much tzoros, God's expansive (and expanding) love truly can conquer all.
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READINGS FOR THE COMING WEEK
Proper 21 (26) (September 25, 2016)
http://lectionary.library.vanderbilt.edu/
First reading and Psalm
Jeremiah 32:1-3a, 6-15
Psalm 91:1-6, 14-16
Alternate First reading and Psalm
Amos 6:1a, 4-7
Psalm 146
Second reading
1 Timothy 6:6-19
Gospel
Luke 16:19-31
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Blessings,
Steve
I did some West Kentucky cave spelunking with you but never came to the dead end dilemma. I do, however, totally identify with your characterization of danger, and the recognition there is no "easy way out."
ReplyDeleteYes! You and I had some great times exploring under the earth. This particular adventure was the first time I "spelunked" with Paul Gholson. The rest of the story is that we had taken the left route when we came to a "Y" in the tunnels. Once we came to the dead end, we wriggled backwards up the slope until we had both passed the "Y." Then, we went to the right and eventually came to the opening into the "crystal cave." It certainly helped make up for the earlier disappointment and difficulty making a course correction.
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