Alone (a Steve Orr scripture reflection)

To say the old man struggled is too light a word. “Struggled,” “wrestled,” “fought”; we’ve somehow leeched the weight and power out of these words. All that’s left me, that truly describes these events, is “battle.” That day I witnessed a man battle against his own body with all the ferocity of a soldier charging the enemy. He gave it his all with each wavering step, knees slightly bent against the weight of his burden, determination painted in rivulets of sweat coursing down his face.

 

Tall, thin, not-recently-shaven; he wore one of those sleeveless undershirts with the scoop neck, a pair of grey, shapeless pants that had been washed too often, leather shoes that had seen better days, no socks. He was carrying a low-sided cardboard box packed with three half gallons of milk and a loaf of bread. 

 

Carrying is not the right word. He was laden with it. From his slow, wobbly gate, anyone could see he had more than his ancient limbs could handle. Each step was a struggle. I could see the thin, ropey muscles of his arms starkly etched against the parchment of his skin. 

 

I don’t think any of us was shocked when the first milk carton tumbled.

 

It all seemed to move in some sort of horror-film-slow-motion; the corner of the box buckling just a little, the milk carton starting to tip over the edge, the old man reactively tugging everything up, causing the falling carton to start a slow end-over-end spin as it floated out of the box and toward the sidewalk.

 

It hit with a slapping sound we all could hear.

 

And … nothing happened. The carton landed on its bottom, with no apparent damage. Everyone breathed. The moment of horror had passed. The relief that flooded though us was so strong, so palpable. 

 

Then, as we were just beginning to think of returning to our previous activities, the old man knelt to pick up the errant milk carton … and the second carton began its tumble from the box.

 

Right then, I knew: He was not going to make it. I wanted him to make it, but he just could not do it. How does a man who has difficulty just walking pick up a carton of milk without dropping the rest of his load?

 

This time the top of the carton struck the concrete sidewalk. Milk spewed in every direction. Milk splattered his feet, his legs, his shirt. Droplets dotted his face. 

 

People of his generation were a resolute lot. He had lived through some trying times; World War I, the Great Depression, World War II, Korea. So, he soldiered on. He knew what to do in a situation like this: no crying over spilt milk.

 

And he didn’t cry. He passed his hand over his face, wiping away a few droplets of milk. He reached for the first, upright milk carton, placed it back in the box, and then slowly, carefully managed to raise himself back to a standing position without further crisis.

 

He resumed his slow, unsteady shuffle; not looking back at his failure, leaving it behind him in the way we had all been taught. In all this time, he had not taken as much as 15 steps. Now, he resumed putting one foot before the other, wobbly but resolute. 

 

One step. 

 

Two. 

 

Three.

 

I’m not sure what actually happened. Maybe the first milk carton had sustained some damage when it landed upright on the sidewalk and had sprung a slow leak. Maybe all of his efforts had just exhausted the man. Whatever the cause, on his sixth step away from the milk spill, the box caved in the middle.

 

It happened very fast. The two sides of the box flipped up to meet each other in the middle. The bread and surviving milk cartons flew forward from the old man’s grasp. And he did grasp, at all of it. He actually got one hand on one of the cartons, but it slipped right through.

 

Before him on the sidewalk were two burst milk cartons; a loaf of bread split open and sopping wet with milk, one of the cartons having landed directly on it before spilling and soaking the loaf. And then—while grasping the folded and useless piece of cardboard—then the old man cried.

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In this week’s scriptures, we find both Job and Jesus suffering. Job thought God was the source of his misery, and he just wanted it all to end. The author of Psalm 22 foresaw the suffering of Jesus on the cross, tapped into the moment when Jesus felt so abandoned by God He cried out: “My God, my God! Why have you forsaken me?”

 

I wasn’t there when Job nearly crumpled under the weight of the troubles Satan piled on him. I wasn’t there when the Psalmist prophesied the crucifixion of Jesus. But I was there when that old man, alone in his struggle, tried so hard, but lost it all, anyway. That is carved into my memory. That gives me a sense of the isolation suffered by Job and Jesus—the crushing sense that God had abandoned them in the time of their greatest need. 

 

But that’s not what happened. 

 

Not only was God aware of Job’s trials—hearing every word his servant Job spoke as he suffered—God had to hear His own son shout out His sense of abandonment as he died in pain. 

 

If all we had was this—that God heard—how sad our lives would be. But the Hebrews selection reminds us that Jesus “in every respect has been tested as we are.” And that because He can “sympathize with our weaknesses,” we can find help when we need it most.

 

Do you find yourself in deep distress? Is life, sometimes, just too hard? Do your friends, like Job’s, think you are at fault for the trouble you’re in? Do you, sometimes, think they might be right? In those moments when you feel isolated, abandoned, disregarded, uncared for, unable to find God—hold on. Even though you feel utterly alone in your suffering, you are not alone. God is there, has been there all along. 

You. Are. Not. Alone. 

 

 

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Be sure to read all of this week's Lectionary selections. This is one of those weeks when they all fit together. Then join us at DaySpring’s Lectionary Breakfast Friday morning on Zoom** or in person at Our Breakfast Place. We start at 8:00. 

 

Blessings,

Steve 

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SCRIPTURES FOR SUNDAY & THE COMING WEEK

Find them here: 

https://lectionary.library.vanderbilt.edu/texts/?y=382&z=p&d=79

 

Print them here:

https://lectionary.library.vanderbilt.edu/wp-content/uploads/pdfs/Bx_Proper23.pdf

 

Job 23:1-9, 16-17

Psalm 22:1-15

Amos 5:6-7, 10-15

Psalm 90:12-17

Hebrews 4:12-16

Mark 10:17-31

Proper 23 (28) (October 13, 2024)

The Director and the Stage Manager (a Steve Orr scripture reflection)

I had been elevated ... by the only person with the power and authority to do that.

Were you ever in a play? Onstage, I mean? For some people, that’s a fun experience. Others find it terrifying. For some, it’s the thrill of a lifetime. The few times I was onstage were cringe worthy experiences; forgotten lines being the main problem. 

 

My happy place was backstage.

 

The audience can see and hear much of the production. But the backstage part is usually never noticed at all. For weeks on end, the stage crews build everything that will appear onstage: the walls, doorways, buildings, platforms, etc. Others dedicate their time and talents to costuming, lighting, sound, marketing, ticket sales ... on and on. 

 

In my theatre days, we didn’t have the phrase, “It takes a village.” But that’s what it takes. 

 

It was there, in my part of the theatre, that one of the most important moments of my life would occur. We had finally come to Dress Rehearsal, the night before Opening Night, the night before the public would actually appear to serve as the final arbiters of all our work. As Stage Manager, it was my job to ensure we were ready. 

 

I surveyed the people under my charge. They were all diligently performing their tasks: from lighting and sound preparation, to the last-minute checks of a large house that had to move about the stage on concealed wheels, to those ensuring the actors were at the spots where they entered onstage.

 

That’s when the Director came and asked the question I was expecting: “Are you ready?” He had asked that question before, and I had always answered honestly, even if the answer was that we were not 100% ready. Complete honesty was the only way that relationship could work. That night, though, I could say, with great satisfaction, “Yes. We are ready.” 

 

He looked me in the eye, saw that I was certain, and then spoke the words that would mean so much to my young life (and all the years to follow). “Good. Then, the show is yours.”

 

He had never said anything like that, before. 

In my head, I was thinking something like, “How can it be my show? This is his show!” But no. The Director was going to be sitting in the audience for the performance; as, in fact, were all the other directors, designers, teachers ... all those who had worked so hard to hone this into art. None of them would be on the stage for the performance. None of them would be backstage. Whatever we delivered to the audience from this point, it was entirely up to us.

 

From that point, I was in charge. 

 

Though I hadn’t been consciously aware of it, I was one of those pieces being honed over the preceding weeks and months. He had been preparing me for this, the moment when I would be fully in charge of whatever we brought to that audience.

 

No one had ever said anything even remotely like that to me in my entire life.

 

No one had ever placed me in charge of anything. The impact was ... transformative. And even though there were many ups and downs over the next few nights—and, indeed, over the rest of my life—that moment, and all it meant, has remained with me. It has been a reservoir of confidence to draw on in good times and in bad. 

 

I had been elevated ... by the only person with the power and authority to do so: The Director. 

 

I recalled that moment when reading this week’s Hebrews selection where the writer is explaining something very important about Jesus. God, the only person with the power and authority to do so, elevated Jesus to be “the heir of all things,” to inherit a name above any angel, to be the one who “sustains all things by His powerful word,” to sit down “at the right hand of the Majesty on high.”

 

And how did that come to be? Jesus obeyed. 

 

He obeyed God in all He did in His three decades, here. He willingly became the “pioneer” of our salvation through suffering and death. Because of his unfailing obedience, Jesus now speaks for God. 

 

It’s His show.

 

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PHOTO CREDIT: Adobe Express

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We’ll be at DaySpring’s Lectionary Breakfast Friday morning at 8:00. Join us on Zoom** or in person at Our Breakfast Place. It’s a fun hour. Good food, good folk. We eat. We talk scripture. We laugh.

 

Blessings,

Steve 

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SCRIPTURES FOR SUNDAY & THE COMING WEEK

Find them here: 

https://lectionary.library.vanderbilt.edu/texts/?y=382&z=p&d=78

 

Print them here:

https://lectionary.library.vanderbilt.edu/wp-content/uploads/pdfs/Bx_Proper22.pdf

 

Job 1:1, 2:1-10

Psalm 26

Genesis 2:18-24

Psalm 8

Hebrews 1:1-4, 2:5-12

Mark 10:2-16

Proper 22 (27) (October 6, 2024)