Thursday, May 22, 2008

Local Event - Chapter 01

LOCAL EVENT (a novel) - CHAPTER 1

by Steve Orr

CHAPTER ONE - The Book

April 23, 2038

Gimmelwald, Switzerland

His carriage erect, his shoulders squared, Ansel Yopp strode through the Great Hall at a pace that belied his years even though he knew he would pay for his bravado with aching muscles and sore joints. However, since he knew that Davidson, hurrying along in his wake, would make note of his apparent vitality and could be counted on to tell the others, it was worth the price.

The room was a rough isosceles triangle. Yopp's immediate goal was a little reading area before the massive fireplace which formed the "peak" of the three-sided hall. To either side of the fireplace, stretching over 20 feet along each wall were floor-to-ceiling windows. He settled into the wingback chair and gifted himself with a long, savoring gaze out the tall glass panels. He saw a breathtaking view of the waterfalls, sparkling in the sunlight of, by alpine standards, a beautiful spring day. Windows like that were just two of the joys of living in a house with twenty-foot ceilings.

Reluctantly, he tore himself away from the view and looked at the book Davidson had urged upon him just minutes earlier. According to the stamp on the spine, it was published by Third Coast Press, whatever that was. On the cover, in garish colors, was a large rock hurtling through space, apparently on a collision course with the Earth. The rock seemed to be on fire -- on fire . . . in outer space. Above this were the words, "The Strike: Coincidence or Conspiracy?" The large letters of the title appeared to have been hewn from the same flame-edged rock. Below, in similar but smaller letters, was the author's name, "Charles Dexter." The words also appeared to be rushing to bombard the Earth.

Quickly, before Davidson could do it, Yopp reached out and pulled the floor lamp closer to the chair. At one-hundred-twenty-three years, he was, to the best of his knowledge, the oldest man on the planet. Despite all the years, he felt healthy and strong. He resented having people always trying to do things for him. Hadn't he clawed his way to the top of this organization? Did they really think he would let something like age impair his ability to lead? Besides, it just plain got on his nerves to have them hovering about all the time.

Ignoring Davidson for the moment, he opened the book to the Preface and read silently:


It finally happened. After all those stories and books, all those radio plays, television shows, movies, and mini-series on holovision; after all the scientific speculation about what could happen, should happen, would happen; after all the publishing in journals, it really did, finally, happen. Shortly after the beginning of the third millennium of the so-called "Christian era", a sizeable chunk of space dust finally found its way to the Earth.


Perhaps you wonder at the title to this book. How, you might ask, could it be anything but a coincidence? How could anything so massive, so destructive, so . . . astronomical be the result of a conspiracy?


But, suppose for just a moment, suppose you really believed it was a conspiracy. You would have to wonder just what kind of beings would have the ability to rain death down on an entire planet. The scale, alone, boggles the mind. There is an even more fantastic consideration. What kind of beings would do such a thing?


Many people will read no further. Some may have already closed the book and moved on down the aisle. Only those of you who have always wondered remain; only those who are labeled 'paranoid' by unbelievers. You know, though, don't you? You know about Roswell, and Kennedy, and Area 51. And you know about this, too.


Yopp was already irritated at Davidson for his solicitude; and now, this book. The writing was amateurish; even the punctuation was done poorly. He had the distinct impression of conflicting styles; as if more than one person had written it. Why was he even bothering with this thing? Behind him, he could hear the voices of the children playing out on the lawn. Well … yes … that's why he did these things. If not for the children, he would never involve himself with such matters.

With a wave of his hand, he indicated that Davidson should sit, then smiled to himself because the only place nearby was the ottoman. It positioned the younger man slightly lower in relation to himself.

Speaking without preamble, his gravelly voice echoing faintly in the cavernous room, he asked, "Why have you brought this to me?"

Davidson had not quite lowered his bottom onto the ottoman and now stopped with mere inches to go. "Well, your eminence, I thought it might be important."

"Tell me Davidson, do you call me 'your eminence' because you respect me or because that's what you want to be called when you manage to take my place?"

Davidson's face turned a deep crimson.

Having gotten what he wanted, Yopp moved on. "Never mind. Sit, sit! Tell me about this book and why it is so important that it needs my personal attention."

Still red in the face, Davidson sat. He cleared his throat. "It came to my attention that this book, the distribution of it I should say, was quashed by Lars Wol over two years ago. We’re puzzled why he never reported to us that he did so."

"The real mystery," countered Yopp, "is that he ever bothered with it in the first place! Just look at it. What possible impact could a piece of trash like this have on us?"

Flipping it open to the same page, he found the place where he had stopped before, and read aloud.


If we are going to find the truth, though, we are going to have to move beyond speculation. We have to start with what everyone knows.


It's been said that numerous "strikes" have occurred in the deep past. Some believe just such a strike killed off the dinosaurs. However, with the possible exception of the mysterious Siberian explosion of 1908, there have been no large strikes in recorded history. If comets or killer asteroids or giant meteors have hit the Earth, the best we can do is point to craters and cracks in the ground as evidence of the events.


Still, most everyone thought it was just a matter of time before it happened again. So, when the announcement finally did come, one would think people would not have been so unprepared. But almost every person on the planet was unprepared. Almost every person.


The stories of what happened before The Strike are numerous, and can be found in any bookstore or library. The fear and panic, the suicides, the murders and other acts of lawlessness have all been well documented.


Yopp looked up from the page, staring off into the distance. "What was Wol thinking? Why involve himself with this? We've seen these I-Found-Atlantis-In-The-Bermuda-Triangle kinds of books, before. The decision was made long ago to just leave them alone, to allow the conspiracy buffs a little bone to gnaw on."

Davidson shifted on the ottoman, apparently unable to make himself comfortable. "Sir, I think this section is not a true representation of..."

Yopp resumed reading aloud, his voice drowning Davidson's.


As we all now know, The Strike was not the extinction level event so many had postulated. At the (cosmically) last minute, the big brute broke apart. We all call what happened "The Strike"; but, in truth, there were many strikes, scattered across the globe; each one of them a local event.


The stories of what happened, as each chunk slid down our gravity well and into history, are as numerous as the lives of those affected by the impacts. The effects of those impacts have been long-term. We even divide our memories between BTS and ATS.


It has been almost two decades since The Strike. Yet, questions remain. What were the forces that shaped these events?


Or, instead of “what,” should we be asking, "who?"


Was it all just a big cosmic coincidence? Or was it accomplished through an intricate and devious plan? Only now are we beginning to discover the truth.


What kinds of beings could do such a thing -- would do such a thing? The most dangerous kind of beings in the known universe. Human beings.


Yopp raised his eyes from the page, this time fixing them on Davidson. "Now, really, does that sound like something we should fear? There's not enough reality in there to matter."

"Sir, I think you should read something besides that page. I've taken the liberty of marking certain sections. If you will read those, I think you will see the problem."

Yopp continued to stare at Davidson for several seconds. Then, he closed the book, setting it on the side table next to a small handbell. He lifted his eyes to the enormous hearth and continued to stare at it until Davidson cleared his throat again. At that, Yopp picked up the bell and rang it.

To Davidson he said, almost offhandedly, “Where is my angel?”

Flustered at the change of subject, Davidson struggled to respond. Before he could do so Yopp asked, clearly agitated, “Well? Where is he?! It’s been over a year now. Why do you waste my time with such matters as this book, when you should be bringing me a report on my angel?

Finally finding his voice, Davidson sputtered, “But sir … the book…”

"Oh, all right! I'll give it some thought. Leave me now … and find my angel!"

He could see that Davidson resented the dismissal, wanted to say more, but kept it in check.

He watched Davidson leave, passing the servant arriving with a load of firewood. While the servant busied himself building the fire, Yopp reclaimed the book.

He had, of course, lied to Davidson. Even in the rubbish he'd just read there was enough truth for them to worry. He would read the selected sections, and more. Indeed, the irritation of a few moments ago was gone.

Looking again at the book's cover, he felt something else, something that caused him to shiver. At first, he could not identify what it was. When he finally did understand, he realized his chill went beyond what the fire could address. For the first time in several decades, Ansel Yopp felt the chill of fear.

####

Washington, DC

The Hill

Sal's weekly meeting with the Congressional Oversight Committee was not going well. For starters, the heat in the meeting room was pervasive and inescapable. The relentless questioning ground on her, as well.

"Ms. Wozniak? Are you familiar with a term or concept referred to as U-D-M? Have you and your folks gathered any information on this?"

The question came from the new Chairman of the Oversight Committee. Sal reviewed what she knew about the woman; Southerner, bright, multi-term member of the House, extremely ambitious.

Chairwoman? How did she want to be addressed? Oh, yes. "Sorry, Madam Chairman, I have no knowledge of such."

"Mmm. Well." Sal watched as she wrote on a pad of paper. "Then do you have any information on a person named Charles Dexter?"

"Sorry, Madam Chairman, I have no knowledge of such."

The Chair, again, made notes on her pad. Sal had lost count of the number of questions to which she had responded "no knowledge of such."

"I've done some checking on you, Ms. Wozniak. The previous Chair of this committee was very forthcoming when I telephoned and asked about you. He says you have a problem with -- How did he put it? -- 'deliverables?' He told me you and your staff seem to always be busy, but that you rarely finish anything. I must say, I have begun to wonder, as well. Tell us, Ms. Wozniak, what have you done for us, lately?"

Nothing Sal did to ease the impact of the heat had any lasting effect. She kept crossing and uncrossing her legs for the momentary relief it gave her. It didn't help that she had to wear so many layers of clothing to attend these things. Never far from the center of her thoughts was the desire to shed some of it, all of it (maybe just the nylons) . . . any of it!

From her seat near the foot of the long, oval table, Sal was not even an arm's length away from the thermostat. She could see it was cranked all the way up to 35C. She desperately wanted to reach out and dial it down to a far more comfortable 25C, or, better still, 20C. It was so close, so tantalizing.

She knew better, though.

Besides, honesty kept her from blaming it all on the thermostat. Not a little of the heat coming her way was political, with the main source being the Chairman, herself. The fruitless questions had been streaming toward her for the better part of an hour. She had yet to recognize a single reference.

"Ms. Wozniak? Did you understand the question? The Committee is waiting."

Madam Chairman's honeyed tones, a product of her southern heritage, often served to misdirect her opponents from a razor-sharp intellect, itself a product her genetic heritage and the best education Wellesley College had to offer.

Sal was not taken in by the woman's drawl. She knew exactly what was going on here. She was being put in her place. She wanted to reply in kind, but held back because she knew the stakes. Sal was not in a position of strength, here. This Oversight Committee had the power to shut down her baby, and this particular Oversight Committee would do whatever its Chairman wanted. The change in administrations had seen to that.

Sal looked from face to face.

With the notable exception of their chairman, there were no women serving on the Oversight Committee. She knew that most of them would, given the chance, be looking up her dress. She supposed she appreciated it in a certain way. Still, she doubted she would have to dress this way if any of them had any experience wearing women's clothing, and none of them did. Then her eyes lit upon the esteemed member from a small New England state. Well, OK. He does. She wondered if he was wearing pantyhose, today.

And, she thought, every person here had reason to want her gone. She was the only barrier between them and their dominance of her staff. She hadn't made any friends here over the years.

Sal remembered the early days. The face-to-face meetings, then, were annual. She'd enjoyed a truly collegial relationship with the original committee Chair. And she missed it still. A lot can change in 15 years, especially in the shifting political landscape of Washington, DC. She'd lost control of this committee two Chairs ago. That's when the “command performances” had jumped to quarterly. The next Chair insisted she appear no less than monthly, and that's when the questioning began.

Sal decided now was the time for her prepared remarks. Collecting the eyes of all the members, Sal then focused her gaze on the Chairman and gave them all a truly dazzling smile. It was a high wattage, photo-op kind of smile. It was the one her mother's sister had called her 'angel smile,' and it was the reason classmates at the Academy had dubbed her 'the shark' ("Sure man, it's plenty toothy. It's just not a smile.").

"Madam Chairman. Esteemed members of the committee. I appreciate this opportunity to speak with you today." She spoke the words from memory. This was the same formal opening she had used the last one hundred times (and change) she had appeared here. "As many of you know, The Core's charter calls for us to concentrate our activities on the policing of the Federal Investigators, the FINs. Your questions, today, while certainly intriguing, do not appear to fall within our charter."

The Chairman interrupted. "Oh, yes, the fabled government bogeymen. The FINs."

Before she could go on, the door behind Sal opened and a member of Madam Chairman's staff hurried to the front of the room. She leaned close and spoke so low that Sal couldn't hear. She did see Madam Chairman's eyebrows rise, just a fraction. Turning back to face the group, she said, "I apologize to you all, but I must close out this session, immediately. My staff will make contact regarding a re-schedule. Ms. Wozniak? Could you come forward please?"

Such was her power that none of them questioned her abrupt adjournment. As the Committee members, most with puzzled looks on their faces, exited from the room, Sal swam against the tide, slowly making her way to the front.

The Chair did not speak until everyone else had exited the room. Handing Sal a small piece of paper, folded once, she said, "It appears you have a little crisis to handle."

She watched as Sal opened the note and read its contents. When Sal looked up, stunned at what she'd read, the Chair was smirking.

"You realize, of course, if this kind of thing keeps happening, there won't be anything left for your little group to do. Now, wouldn't that be a shame?"

Without another word, Madam Chairman turned her back on Sal and strode from the room.

####

Washington, DC

The Metro

So, thought Sal, the woman in the apartment is dead. It was an unwelcome bit of news, more so in that she had learned it from the Chair of the Oversight Committee. That's just great, she thought, making a sour face, one more nail in our coffin. She would have to investigate as soon as she got back.

"Farragut West," purred the standard announcement in a deep, male, voice. "Doors opening on the right. This is the Orange Line to Vienna."

Packed into the subway car, literally shoulder to shoulder, Sal had to admit, at least to herself, that she was not happy.

As the doors opened, people flooded all around her, leaving the car to accomplish whatever business they intended in the blocks surrounding The White House. In her distracted state, she was almost carried out with them. Then, as others poured into the car, she found herself being pushed deeper in. She snagged a purchase on a pole near the door.

Sal Wozniak smoked too much and she drank too much. She knew these things about herself. Neither was the cause of her present unhappiness, though. A growing part of it had to do with the way she looked. Her not-as-blond-as-it-used-to-be hair came from a bottle these days. She had a hint of a double chin and she hated it. She could see in the mirror that she was heavier. Sal was on the downhill slide. Such was her self-perception.

The truth, she had been told by others, was the exact opposite. She still retained much of her earlier beauty. She was no longer model thin, but the extra fleshiness laid on by the years, and by her vices, made for a pleasing effect rather than the other way around. Of course, she dismissed this. Sal had never been one to look beyond herself for personal affirmations. So, the periodic appreciative comments she heard did nothing to alter her own negative perception. She held, as her mother used to say, firm views.

"Please stand clear of the doors," harped the announcement, this time as a perturbed female. Sal could see that the doors were not closing completely. However, on each attempt, they got a bit closer together.

"Please stand clear of the doors," it cried again. Then, Sal felt the crowd shift, saw the doors close, and they were underway.

None of this was at the forefront of her thinking. She was aware of it, but not distracted by it. She was unhappy, mostly, because the meeting on the Hill had not gone well. Sal was worried about funding. The Core (my baby … my brainchild) was in jeopardy; she felt its days were numbered. If the Oversight Committee decided to cut off funding, it was history.

Sounding exactly like the well-known host of an all night easy listening program on cable-audio, the voice said, "Foggy Bottom. Georgetown. George Washington University. Doors opening on the left. This is the Orange Line to Vienna."

Her thoughts went back to the Committee meeting. She had tried, for the umpteenth time, to reason with them. Once again she tried to get the Committee to see that what it was she did was stalking; stalking the bad guys. That was what the Core had been designed to do. The proper term, the less exciting term, the one used by the Committee members, was "surveillance." Instead, they saw the Core as an arm of their committee, developed and funded so that their part of the federal government could keep tabs on other parts of the federal government.

Rocking slightly with the Metro car as it followed its Stygian path under the Potomac, Sal tightened her hold on the bar. But it’s more than that, she thought, feeling the abrupt tug on her arm as the car came to a stop. Someone has to guard the guardsmen, to watch the watchmen.

In this case, the "watchmen" were the FINs, the Federal Investigators. As far as Sal was concerned, they were the enemy. If asked to explain that, she would have said, "Absolute power corrupts absolutely."

She knew that their power was not really absolute, but it was extensive enough to have corrupted several of them. That is where The Core came in. As sordid as it might seem to an outsider, Sal knew that she directed an effort of high purpose and of unusual importance.

Plato was wrong, she thought, there's nothing absurd about guarding these guardsmen.

Over the years, The Core had scored several impressive successes, bringing an extensive array of technologies to the task. Early on, they had nailed several of the original target group, FINs who thought they could act with impunity. Those people weren't acting with anything, anymore. But, in recent years high profile wins, the kind needed to keep their black ops funding flowing, had been sparse. It was beginning to look, even to Sal, like

The Core's glory days were gone. In Washington, DC, the question had ever been, "What have you done for us, lately." It was getting harder for Sal to come up with good answers to that one.

"Rosslyn," soothed the announcement. "First stop in Virginia. Doors opening on the left. Change here for the Blue Line. This is the Orange Line to Vienna."

She wondered why they had never changed the announcements on this line. It's not like any of us can actually go to Vienna, anymore.

####

As the crowd flowed out of the car and onto the platform, Sal allowed herself to be carried along. She was swept up the stairs and on outside to face the cold and gray of April in Washington, DC.

The tread of her steps purposeful and steady, she headed up the hill. The sunlight was wan; she could barely feel its warmth. All the same, it was nice to be outside, even if only for a short time. She could have taken the tunnels, but she felt she had earned a few minutes of open air. Besides, the Rosslyn area was safe enough, especially during the day. She let her mind fill up with the sensations of sun, wind, and snow.

Too soon, the non-descript granite building that housed, among other things, The Core, appeared on her horizon. The closer she got, the larger it appeared, and the more her thoughts turned to what was ahead for her. She would have to address the matter of the dead woman, and then, she would have to do some serious thinking about how to save her baby.

####

The Core

“Ground Level” was the only open-air entrance to the building, and was as nondescript as that of any other federal building in the DC area. Sal took the elevator down to “Tunnel Level” where she rejoined the crowd of people entering and leaving via the vast tunnel system connecting all buildings in the District of Columbia. On this level, connecting directly to the Metro a few blocks away, was a brightly-lit tunnel filled with restaurants and shops. Exiting the elevator, Sal walked in the opposite direction, passing several solid and uninviting doors until she arrived at a Community Based Outpatient Clinic, or CBOC, run by the Department of Veterans Affairs. She pushed her way through the glass doors, waved to the receptionist, and walked into a hallway on the right. This brought her to the Veterans Canteen Service which had no door, but required her to step through by a metal-detecting arch. Sal passed through this without tripping any alarms, but not because she wasn’t armed. Several people, some dressed as medical professionals and some looking more like patients, were either shopping or eating. At the back of the canteen, she stepped through a closed door into a side hallway. The door locked behind her with a solid click. This passageway was brightly lit by florescent lights embedded in the ceiling and was entirely empty. She continued to move briskly along until she came to a door marked “Records.” Using a standard looking key, she opened the door and entered a poorly lit room.

Before her were several rows of floor-to-ceiling file cabinets; a narrow catwalk fronted each row at about the six-foot level. She turned left and walked a short distance to one of the unlit corners of the room. Facing the wall, she raised her hands, palms out, to be level with her eyes. She waited for the scan. There were no lights or sounds to indicate it was taking place. Its sole purpose was to verify a set of biometric implants. Anyone attempting entrance without them would be met by armed personnel and escorted to a holding area until a determination could be made about them. Once the scan was done, a narrow portion of the wall to her immediate left slid open. She stepped through it into a large room.

As soon as the wall section closed, the entire room began to descend. The one-floor drop took her to the first security checkpoint. When the opposite wall opened, she was met by six armed Marines. They stood behind lexawall barriers, their weapons pointed at her through narrow slits. She took off her coat, boots, and gloves, dropping them onto a conveyer belt on her immediate right. Once they had been cleared for possible biohazards, and any other potential threat, they would be returned to this checkpoint for her to claim when she left the building. She then walked directly to the 'decon' room under the alert eyes of the Marine guards. Closing the door gave Sal some privacy, but she was quite aware those weapons were still aimed in her direction.

Once inside, she disrobed, placing her clothing into a large plastic bin. These, too, would be processed and held until her return. Sal placed her hands on rungs embedded in opposite walls, and then she placed her feet on cold metal pads set widely apart in the floor. The effect, she knew, was to make her appear as a human 'X' with a head. Many might find the situation uncomfortable. Sal gave it no thought at all. She had designed all the security protocols for entrance to and exit from the building; to her, this was part of going to work every day. These scans came with lights and sounds. Their purpose was to discern any biological threat that might be on, or in, her body.

Once the scanning was done, the 'decon' room opened automatically into another. There she donned a blue jumpsuit and comfortable sneakers.

She walked back through the 'decon' room, opened the door, and once again faced the Marines. Weapons following her passage, she stepped back into the elevator and she waited.

A metallic sounding voice said, "Clear."

At that, the Marines lowered their weapons, the doors closed, and she continued her descent.

When the elevator stopped a few seconds later, she exited and walked down a short corridor. At the end were several scan stations. Going to one, she stepped onto the base, placed her palms on the respective hand scanners, and leaned forward to align her eyes with the retinal scanners. At the word, "Clear," her station rotated 180 degrees. When she stepped back, she was in a different corridor, one that led to a third, more conventional elevator. This time, the drop took a full minute.

At the end, she walked out into a brightly-lit lobby. There were Marines here, as well, but none with weapons drawn. Blocking the path from the elevator was a desk. She stopped there and retrieved a photo ID card that would adhere to her jumpsuit. Without a word, she moved past the desk and into a short hall. No one challenged her; at this level, she was the ranking person. She swiped the ID card through a reader, and then smoothed it onto the front of her jumpsuit as a door opened into The Core.

When she had designed it, her inspiration had been a can of tuna. Of course, she had never actually told anyone that. Government workers were notorious for appending humorous nicknames to their buildings and agencies. She was serious about her work, and could not abide anyone making light of it, even the work space. Mostly, it was one very large, circular room, its diameter more than twice its height. But, with the screens filling almost half the circumference, and tier upon tier of console stations terraced up the other half, the room seemed smaller than it was. It existed in perpetual twilight. In fact, none of the people who worked so industriously within it, save Sal, had ever seen it in greater illumination. Outside light did not reach The Core.

Stepping up to her station at the center of the main floor, Sal could see that each person was going about his or her work at a steady, thoughtful, pace. Everything was not in readiness, though. She had expected to return to find things neat and tidy. Instead, here and there wall panels and floor plates were still open, providing a clear view of The Core's naked entrails. Heads appeared at floor level and backsides jutted from the walls where service technicians were implementing her latest budget wizardry.

The repairs and upgrades were needed, at least in her view. The fact that the Oversight Committee wouldn't allocate funds for them wasn't about to keep Sal from making them. She just had to take the monies from somewhere else. She wondered, without any true concern for the answer, if they would someday find out what she had done.

Due to what the Chairwoman had called "the present downtime," the Core had been reduced to performing routine surveillance activities on whatever persons or groups were deemed important by the Oversight Committee. These were really pet projects, though, and it galled Sal to have to do them.

At the moment, the denizens of The Core were busily trying to determine why the subject of their current assignment was dead. All manner of sensitive equipment had been secreted within the woman's apartment. Today was to have been the first day they observed her. What they had planned to do was check each surveillance device, ensure its operability, and then check each backup device for the same thing. They were going to do a test recording of all the data flows. Today was supposed to have been a low key "shakedown cruise."

When they brought up the sensors for the initial run through, they discovered instead an apartment full of police, crime scene investigators, medical examiners, and EMT's. And, of course, the dead woman. Even though she would never say it out loud, Sal was thinking, Well, at least this will be interesting. But, she also knew that, with one less person to surveil, her group was going to move one step closer to zero funding.

Raising her voice slightly, she said, "All right boys and girls. Listen up! Please include the following in your search routines: the letters U-D-M -- probably an acronym of some sort -- , and the name 'Charles Dexter' -- that’s D-E-X-T-E-R. Oh, and reprioritize 'hummingbird' to 1-A. We need to find out what that refers to. It's been two weeks since that first came to our attention and I've had nothing from you.

"Now, we're going to go ahead with our data flow check. Or, as best we can with repairs continuing. While we're at it, let’s see if we can find out what happened to Ms. Powers while our backs were turned, hmmm? Let's get everything recorded. Hopefully, we can learn something use ---."

Even though she had been talking to the tiers, she had been facing the screens. The largest screens in the center, about forty of them, were combined to show an oversized view of the dead woman's Austin, Texas apartment. Sal had stopped talking when, up on the screens, the man had walked into the apartment, holding up his ID. The distinct four-pointed star of his badge flashed in the crime scene spotlights and identified him to everyone as a FIN.

"Target!" she barked.

Suddenly, everyone in The Core was scrambling to get fully operational. She waited, impatiently, as the seconds seemed to crawl by.

Near the ten-second mark a crisp female voice called out of the twilight, "Our database indicates the target is Samuel Jones. He is one of the original Federal Investigators, fully empowered. His record is spotless. We have never been able to catch him abusing his portfolio." Sal made a mental note that this report came from Hardiwick. She thought, Way to go, girl.

Without taking her eyes off the screens, Sal called out new orders. "Full push. I want every thing. I want to know why he is at that apartment. I do not believe in coincidences, so don't try to sell me any! And turn up the volume. I don't want to miss a single word."

Up on the screens, the FIN was arguing with someone, most likely the police detective in charge. She saw that the detective, if that's what he was, had lost the battle. The sound came up. People in the apartment were gathering up equipment, closing notebooks, and heading for the door. She could hear people grumbling and cursing, but not loud enough to bring any of them to the FIN's attention.

This is going to be more interesting than I thought. She lit a cigarette and settled back to watch.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

The Butterfly



(Photo courtesy of pdphoto.org)

In the movie, THE REPLACEMENTS, while urging his offensive squad to give their all for one last game, substitute Quarterback Shane Falco says, “Pain heals. Chicks dig scars. Glory lasts forever.” While I might like to contend with Mr. Falco about his first and third assertions at some future point, I have (blessedly) had almost no experience with physical scars, and thus have no basis to know how attractive they are to chicks. And, while I think I now know a little bit about spiritual scars, I have no way of knowing whether chicks dig them or not. What I do know about spiritual scars is that they are all but invisible to people who don’t have any.

Does the future butterfly feel pain while it is forming (re-forming?) in its chrysalis? That is an answer I would like to know. With us humans, when God is shaping (or re-shaping) us, there is usually a good deal of pain. When the caterpillar moves along its entombed journey to its new life, does it sleep a deep, painless sleep; or does it struggle against the process; resisting, holding back? When God is pulling the skin away from the little pilgrim’s body to use in creating its wings, does it feel pain? I do know that we hold back, resisting the process of becoming.

And, another challenge to our personal reformations, we are not good at recognizing the process in ourselves or others. As a youth, the older, wiser, “solid” people I met (and somewhat idolized), those whose discipleship of Jesus appeared effortless, seemed to my limited experience to just BE that way. Process was not a concept I thought much about. And when I would read some author claiming that “real” change is “forged in pain” or some similar allusion, I usually thought, ungraciously I now see, that this person must be deficient in some way. Else, why have to go through the pain? Obviously (so my youthful thoughts went), God could easily change those who would just yield to his loving touch; only the truly recalcitrant would have to be wrenched into shape. Since then, experience has taught me much.

My experience has been that, as God shapes (wrenches, pounds, slams, stretches, flattens, crams) me, I begin to perceive a tiny bit more of the process, in myself and in others. I have been shocked lately to realize—after all these years of thinking I was on the potter’s wheel, being spun by God into a vessel of significance—that I am still just a lump of clay being “thrown.” God has just been loosening me up, making me more malleable for the real work ahead. Here I thought, based on the pounding I’ve taken so far, that I was on my way to being a God-shaped vessel, destined for spiritual service of some importance; having completely forgotten that the truly delicate work of spiritual shaping can only be done with the most malleable of materials.

So, when I observe the delicate beauty of the butterfly, when I find myself thinking “WOW!” about the glory of God’s handiwork in that creature, I have to remind myself that the little pilgrim got like that the hard way. In fact, there really is no other way. If a butterfly is to have wings—and how to be one without them?—then it must, somewhat like Eustace in Lewis’ VOYAGE OF THE DAWN TREADER, have its skin pulled away from its body; without that skin there can be no wings.

And, if I am to become what God has in mind for me, I must transit the process, whatever it is, however challenging it may seem at the time. But, unlike the caterpillar-cum-butterfly, I do not have to take this journey alone. There are others. And … I am, finally, beginning to recognize them.

Praise God.

Friday, January 4, 2008

A Sunday Afternoon in Winter

There were two, matching chairs in our living room. They sat to either side of a low corner table, perpendicular to each other. The chairs were low, like the table, and covered in a brown fabric with green highlights. My mother’s chair faced the television; this, in the minds of my sister and me, made it the best chair. Whenever Mama wasn’t home, we fought over who got to sit in her chair. We developed elaborate mechanisms by which one could establish whether it was his or her turn to sit in the chair; and if already ensconced in it, one would have to call out “place saved” before going to the bathroom or to fetch snacks. If one failed to do this, and one’s sibling was paying attention, one could find oneself back sitting on the floor.

The view from Daddy’s chair, the direct view, was down the hall, over the floor furnace, and into our one bathroom (sink, no cabinet; bath, no shower). This view held no value for us kids, and so, neither did Daddy’s chair. That is, until I was twelve and discovered the joys of sitting sideways in Daddy’s chair with my legs dangling over the arm, talking on the phone and trying to think of witty things to say to girls; but that is a story for another day.

On this day, Mama and Daddy occupied their respective thrones, watching some Christmas show on our black & white television—Daddy, of course, looking to his right. The afternoon sun came slicing through our picture window, painting a good sized rectangle of warmth on the living room carpet. And even if Mama’s chair had been empty, I would not have wanted to sit in it; not with that spot on the carpet calling to me. To my mind, nothing compared to stretching out on the carpet where I could be lulled into an afternoon nap by the warmth of the sun.

Paducah, Kentucky rests at the confluence of the Tennessee and Ohio Rivers; a fairly pleasant location three-fourths of the year, but the corner of “Cold Street” and “Wet Avenue” in the winters. No one had yet heard the phrase, “Wind-chill Factor.” We said things like, “That wind cuts to the bone!”; or “This breeze is bone-chilling.” And, while it was not as bad as at the intersection of Fourth & Broadway (just four blocks from the riverfront), the wind was cold enough out on 21st Street. That sunny block on our carpet was, to my thinking, prime real estate at that time of year.

Ours was, usually, a fairly quiet home. Oh, we had the normal noises of life. For example, I awoke each morning to the sounds of Big Band music (and the smells of frying bacon and brewing coffee) wafting up to my room in the attic. My Father never failed to start his morning listening to the Jim Youngblood Show. I could never enumerate the times I woke to hear “In the Mood” or some other equally well known Big Band standard, followed by the Announcer saying something like, “Today’s program comes to you compliments of the good folks down at Wallerstein’s, where gentlemen know to shop. Won't you stop in there soon? Tell them J.Y. sent you by!” Now, those morning rituals are a very fond memory. But at the time, I must confess, nothing about this music appealed to me; if it wasn’t a product of the British Invasion, or found in a Hymnal, I had no interest. That lasted until my senior year when my high school launched a Stage Band; once my friends were playing Big Band music, I suddenly discovered just how wonderful it was.

In an average day, you would hear our radio, our television, my sister’s new hairdryer (with the new, roomy, elasticized cap to keep all that hot air on the hair), the sounds of food frying (our usual method of cooking almost anything), and, among others, the sound of pages turning in books. What you rarely heard was the sound of my parents voices raised in anger toward one another; but, oh, those silences could be cold.

For the record, my parents were human beings with strengths & weaknesses, positives & negatives, foibles, just like any other. They had their shortcomings, among them the fact that they had come to a point where they were not really happy together. For my father’s part, I ascribe most of it to the war. Today, we would say my father suffered from Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (“PTSD”). He had these bouts of melancholy, low self-concept, and, sometimes, outright depression. It made it difficult for him to sustain a career during a time when that was the expectation of all men; a time when only a raise & a promotion excused leaving one job for another before the expiration of about 20 years or so. Daddy had many mini-careers; first a Chiropractor, then a brick & tile man, then a riverboat pilot, then a dairyman, then a printer, then a carpenter. I may have left out a few; those are all I can remember from my time under his roof. And make no mistake, there always WAS a roof, and walls, and warmth in the winter, and I can’t ever recall missing a meal. But, still, a troubling situation for the times.

Mama suffered, in large part, from Cinderella Syndrome. She was still married to her Prince, but the fairytale had “moved on” (to borrow a wonderfully descriptive term from Stephen King). Daddy was no longer the expected doctor. There was no castle, no country club, no staying at home to raise kids. Mama was never one to be introspective, or even very reflective, so she would never have considered that she had been gainfully employed since she was eleven years old, had chosen work over taking the one remaining course required to graduate from high school, and competed ferociously for promotions in a work world not prone to promote women. I don’t think my mother ever forgave my father for not being all that he could have been. In her heart, I think she believed it was my father’s fault that she “had” to work while, at least in the fairytale, other women stayed home. In reality, most of my friends had mothers who had jobs. After all, this was Paducah, Kentucky; it was only the society women who could afford to stay home full time. And, lets face it, they didn’t really STAY at home; they were out every day at the Junior League, or the country club, or planning this year’s Dogwood Trail. But, my mother could not see all that, at least not that way. Best I can tell, Mama had, at some early point in the marriage, thought that world would be hers; that Daddy was her knight come to rescue her from having grown up without any of the shiny things in life.

I mean no disrespect to either of my parents by any of the negative things I write about them here. My parents were, to their peers, amazing people; engendering strong, enduring loyalties among those who counted them as their friends. My mother achieved considerable success in her career with the telephone company, despite the massively unequal treatment endured by working women during those decades. For example, what passed for “maternity leave” in her day required that she quit her job when “it was time” (some well known, but ill defined point in the pregnancy shortly before the baby was due). Between miscarriages and deliveries, my mother started her career over at least five times. That’s right, started over, as in no “cumulative service clause” in the union agreement. None of Mama’s previous work counted for anything when she returned to the telephone company after a pregnancy. Despite this, and many other inequities, Mama worked her way up into management of what was, then, a real Good Old Boys Club of a company. And, she was adored & admired by her sisters, brothers, nieces, nephews, cousins, etc., for all that she was and achieved.

My father was almost worshiped by the older people in our extended family (both his side and Mama’s side) for all the wonderful things he did for them. It was common for Daddy to get up on a Saturday morning and drive over to the home of one elderly relative or another where he would, without request or prompt, repair their roof, screen door, porch, car, etc. My father was so well liked in our community, that I even recall someone saying to him, in dead earnest, “Doc, if you ran for office, I’d vote for you.” I believe Daddy was both embarrassed and pleased by the, well there is no other word for it, adoration he received from so many.

Even MY friends liked my parents; it was not uncommon for one of them to tell me how great they thought my parents were, how lucky I was to have them, and how (someone really said this to me) they wished my parents were their parents. Of course, my problem was that I was too close. Not only could I see the paint strokes; I could see the weave of the canvas. Some years of perspective have helped me to see them for the complex people they were.

So, when I write that it was a bit cold in our living room on some Sunday afternoons, you can now know I mean something a little different from the ambient temperature. Which is why that particular Sunday afternoon, and that particular acre of sunlit carpet, remain in my memory to this day. On that afternoon, all of the cold was outside; the quiet in the house was an amiable one; for that day, and that afternoon, everything seemed right; the sounds included some quiet laughter. My memory of lying there on that warm, bright patch of our living room carpet has come to symbolize for me a certain kind of peace; a few hours of the fairytale come to life. It is my memory of Home.

Thursday, January 3, 2008

No Waco, No Roswell, No Bunker Hill

No Waco, No Roswell, No Bunker Hill

Many a person has traveled to Roswell, New Mexico to see the famous [alleged] flying saucer crash site, only to learn when they arrive that NOTHING crashed in Roswell (if indeed anything crashed at all). Even those who claim the crash actually occurred do not claim it occurred in Roswell; rather, that something crashed in nearby Corona.

A similar situation occurs when people travel to Waco, Texas expecting to see the ruins of the Branch Davidian Compound still smodering in the center of the city. In fact, this horrific event took place in Elk, Texas out in McLennan County, not in Waco at all. If you go back and watch the media clips from the event, you will see that almost all of them are tagged "Near Waco Texas." Other places near Waco include Temple (a really nice town with a great VA facility - similar to the one in Waco), Lorena (home of Ruthy's with its truly great Tex-Mex food), and Crawford (home of President Bush's ranch).

And don't even get me started on Bunker Hill (check it out on Wikipedia). It seems we have, from a time even before the US was a separate country, had a tendency to name things for events that transpired somewhere nearby. I'm not sure why. The overwhelming majority of what we call the "Battle of Bunker Hill" during the Revolutionary War ["Don't fire until you see the whites of their eyes!"] actually occurred at nearby Breed's Hill.

In the case of Roswell and Waco, I think those sites were chosen for publication purposes because they are easier to find on a map than Corona, NM and Elk, TX. Their use may also have arisen because they were the nearest place a reporter could file a news story ["Deadline: Roswell"]; the nearest place a reporter could find a motel/hotel room for the night(s), and, just maybe, the nearest place with enough electricity.

Still, whatever analysis you bring to it, there seems to be an underlying unfairness about it all. Why should a city get labeled as the flying saucer capital of the world when nothing of the sort occurred there? And why should a perfectly nice city of over 100,000 normal people be seen as the location for such a tragedy as occurred at the Branch Davidian Compound?

I know it's not enough, but perhaps this little blog will do a tiny bit toward righting the scales. Do you know of other locations that have been wrongly labeled, for whatever reason? Let me know.